a newbie to marriage

At the beginning of my marriage to Adam I realized how selfish I was: single, only having to look out for myself.
My wants. 
My needs. 
My money. 
My time. 
Mine. 
Mine.
Mine.

I've had to change my mindset to "us" with all of those things.

Today I realized how selfish I still am even after almost 6 months of marriage. Sure I've changed my basic thought process since getting married but I'm still consumed with me, myself and I.

I have put MY life as the focus of my life. I've forgotten, neglected, shamed my first Love. I've put my physical life before Christ. It wasn't hard for my own desires to give birth to sin as the Book of James warns.
Thankfully, I have a Savior Who loves me and desires LIFE more abundantly for me.

My struggles:
Change. I hate change. I've been working with the Lord to overcome this fear.

No family. No job. No friends....all huge changes.all very hard.
New town, new state, new people, new job, new church....all new.all different.all changes. 

Adam is constantly telling me to affect change where I can.

So I've been pursuing friendships. I have been making the first move. This is hard for me because I tend to be very shy at the beginning of a friendship.
But.I.Love.Coffee. And having coffee dates takes pressure off of me because I feel like if someone comes to my house it needs to be the perfect little American home. And I am far from perfect.

I pray that the Lord will continue to convict me as I strive to live for Christ. I also ask for prayer that I will keep Christ first. That I will put Adam above myself. I ask for prayer as I figure out how to enhance Adam's life and not turn it upside down because of changes I want (but don't always need).

I'm a newbie to marriage and need prayers.

2012 - Welcome

2012. Thank you for coming. Some of my favorite memories from 2011:

February: Adam sent me my first ever Valentine's Day flowers. A dozen red roses. 

March: Adam proposed on the 17th, St. Patrick's Day. I picked out my wedding dress, bridesmaid dresses, and created my registries.

July: Adam took me to Upstate (Western) New York and also to Niagara Falls.

August: I got married and took an incredible honeymoon to the State of Washington. 

October: My amazing nephew Madden was born and I also carved my first pumpkin.

November: I cooked my first turkey (and it didn't cook all the way) and also served my In-Laws Thanksgiving Dinner (I cooked everything but the gravy).

December: First Christmas as a married woman and also away from home. Also went to my first Bowl Game (Music City Bowl). And I also saw the inside of the Opryland Hotel.

My last moments in 2011 and my first moments in 2012 were spent listening to the Avett Brothers live in concert. 

It's been a good year. I'm very thankful for Adam and I love that he desires to take me places I've never been. I am sooo looking forward to the new adventures 2012 will bring my way!