Premarital Sex - Year Later

A reader commented on my last post and asked how I feel now.... a year later after having premarital sex.

A lot has happened in one year.

And it may take a couple posts to bring my life up to date.

In the mean time, how I feel? Sometimes there is still pain, a lot of pain. But there is joy and I am healing.

Last summer I went to a therapist and she really helped me jump-start my healing process by showing me the Love of the LORD.
I also started a girls-only book club called WOP (Women of Purity) and we read Emotional Purity. I had read the book before but never truly realized how important it is to be emotionally pure. And they all helped me heal even more.
I also met a man. A good man. A man who desires to make a vow before GOD and man to protect, love, cherish and not to ever leave me.

Having premarital sex with a man who wanted nothing more than to check off "virgin" on his sexual quest list left me scarred and on major defense when it came to men.

Adam has had to break down walls and he's done it with such love and gentleness that I know it's from the Father of Love.

Adam and I are getting married in August and my heart sings with joy. God has blessed me and He's healing my wounds.

And I am thankful.

Yeah, I Like to Hide

I've noticed a trend. When life starts to get too hard to deal with I do one of two things (sometimes both).

1. I stop blogging

2. I block everyone from my reading list.

Doesn't make for a very good blogging author to say the least. It's almost been an exact month since I've blogged. Mr. Fail was part of my reason behind that.

I knew he was no good. I knew it would not be wise for me to go out with him. But the chemistry and the connection was so strong I didn't want to give it up.

How we now just call me Miss Fail-Wanna-Be? Well, I would give you permission, but I've had my own little personal revival. Jesus shot me with His Holy Ghost machine gun and I've been sticking close to him ever since.

Basically, expect more blog post and less blocking. :) Praise the Lord, right?!