I'm serving blessings! haha! That's pretty cheesy.
1. I'm thankful God has given me talent in the kitchen. I love cooking for other people. Today I made banana bread and plan on sharing it with my Bible study group even though I can't make it to the study with my pink eye.
2. A clean house is a huge blessing. I cannot even begin to explain how much stress is relieved when the house is clean. I feel like I can manage whatever, whenever when the house is clean.
3. Friends who pray for me.
4. Knowing God loves me beyond all measure.
5. Chocolate milk (any form of chocolate is a blessing! lol)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Under Attack
I rarely get sick. I mean, I may get a cold once during the winter and then I have allergies during the spring. But besides that I don't normally get sick. I have never broken a bone. I haven't ever sprained anything.
But last week I believe I dislocated a bone in my wrist. I popped my wrist Saturday and it stopped hurting.
And the night before last I woke up in the middle of the night with massive drainage in my left eye. It's been red ever since. I think it may be pink eye, but I'm not positive. Mostly because I haven't had any puss as is normal for pink eye. My eye does kinda itch, it's had a clear film on it and then also a little drainage, but no build up of puss.
I'm being pretty careful about not touching my eye and if I do making sure I wash my hands.
I am wondering if I'm under attack. A spiritual attack with physical illnesses. It's kinda strange that it's happening right after another.
Please continue to pray for me. I'm kinda tired of this.
But last week I believe I dislocated a bone in my wrist. I popped my wrist Saturday and it stopped hurting.
And the night before last I woke up in the middle of the night with massive drainage in my left eye. It's been red ever since. I think it may be pink eye, but I'm not positive. Mostly because I haven't had any puss as is normal for pink eye. My eye does kinda itch, it's had a clear film on it and then also a little drainage, but no build up of puss.
I'm being pretty careful about not touching my eye and if I do making sure I wash my hands.
I am wondering if I'm under attack. A spiritual attack with physical illnesses. It's kinda strange that it's happening right after another.
Please continue to pray for me. I'm kinda tired of this.
Habakkuk 1
I wasn't sure which chapter to read and then blog about so I just opened my Bible. Ever read Habakkuk? I have... once... a long time ago.
Habakkuk asked the Lord, ""...how long shall I cry, and You will not hear?""
I have asked the Lord that so many times. But what good does it do if you aren't willing to take whatever answer the Lord gives?
The Lord replies saying He is going to bring the Chaldeans, a bitter and hasty nation. They will march through the breadth of the earth, to possess the dwelling places that are not theirs. They are terrible and dreadful; their judgment and their dignity proceed from themselves.
Hardships, trials and temptations, are all part of life. What does Father Love say about trials? To rejoice in them. I struggle with this. I know all the right words to say so I can make it look like I'm rejoicing. But knowing how to ignore and bury my emotions make it easy to fake to everyone around me and even myself.
The end of the chapter Habakkuk goes into how the Lord is from everlasting, He is of purer eyes and cannot look on wickedness. But then Habakkuk ask why He looks at them, why the Lord holds His tongue when the wicked devours a person more righteous than he?
It does seem that the Lord overlooks the wicked. But we know that is not the case. Perhaps chapter two will have the answers for those questions tomorrow.
Habakkuk asked the Lord, ""...how long shall I cry, and You will not hear?""
I have asked the Lord that so many times. But what good does it do if you aren't willing to take whatever answer the Lord gives?
The Lord replies saying He is going to bring the Chaldeans, a bitter and hasty nation. They will march through the breadth of the earth, to possess the dwelling places that are not theirs. They are terrible and dreadful; their judgment and their dignity proceed from themselves.
Hardships, trials and temptations, are all part of life. What does Father Love say about trials? To rejoice in them. I struggle with this. I know all the right words to say so I can make it look like I'm rejoicing. But knowing how to ignore and bury my emotions make it easy to fake to everyone around me and even myself.
The end of the chapter Habakkuk goes into how the Lord is from everlasting, He is of purer eyes and cannot look on wickedness. But then Habakkuk ask why He looks at them, why the Lord holds His tongue when the wicked devours a person more righteous than he?
It does seem that the Lord overlooks the wicked. But we know that is not the case. Perhaps chapter two will have the answers for those questions tomorrow.
Monday, June 8, 2009
A Battle for my Heart and Mind
I am venturing into uncharted, unknown, and undiscovered territory. I have just signed a vow of celibacy for the next 30 days.
For me this means blogging about one chapter of Scripture a day. I chose to blog about it because writing something about the Word of God for everyone to read would require deeper diving into the Word. It would be a source of accountability.
I will also be researching four different subjects within Scripture during this time.
I will spend time every morning and every evening praying, repenting and glorifying God. I have set aside certain times during the morning and evening hours.
I will blog, tweet or post on Facebook 5 blessings God has given and/or shown me that day (again, this is another way for me to be held accountable).
I will also not think about marriage, dating, having a boyfriend, etc for the duration of this vow. I think about these subjects way too much and it needs to stop.
I will also spend time fasting from things that have tendency to comfort me in ways they shouldn't (like food. I am an emotional eater).
This vow has been typed and printed. I have signed it with today's date. A and someone else will sign it as a witness and an accountability partner. I do not take this lightly. I do not take vows lightly at all.
I write all of this to say that I need you to help me. I need prayers. This will be a journey like no other. To be honest I'm scared because I know how much control I've allowed satan to have over my life and this is the beginning of a battle for my heart and mind.
For me this means blogging about one chapter of Scripture a day. I chose to blog about it because writing something about the Word of God for everyone to read would require deeper diving into the Word. It would be a source of accountability.
I will also be researching four different subjects within Scripture during this time.
I will spend time every morning and every evening praying, repenting and glorifying God. I have set aside certain times during the morning and evening hours.
I will blog, tweet or post on Facebook 5 blessings God has given and/or shown me that day (again, this is another way for me to be held accountable).
I will also not think about marriage, dating, having a boyfriend, etc for the duration of this vow. I think about these subjects way too much and it needs to stop.
I will also spend time fasting from things that have tendency to comfort me in ways they shouldn't (like food. I am an emotional eater).
This vow has been typed and printed. I have signed it with today's date. A and someone else will sign it as a witness and an accountability partner. I do not take this lightly. I do not take vows lightly at all.
I write all of this to say that I need you to help me. I need prayers. This will be a journey like no other. To be honest I'm scared because I know how much control I've allowed satan to have over my life and this is the beginning of a battle for my heart and mind.
Monday, June 1, 2009
The Cornerstones of My Wall
I don't know if it's because I've been watching for it. But I can feel my buried/blocked emotions. I can feel my hardened heart.
It has to be the Holy Spirit working wonders in my heart, mind and soul.
My problem right now is I don't want to change my rock-hard emotions. I like having this wall between me and that person. Maybe I'll want to change soon, but right now, I don't. I don't want to talk to this person. I don't want to be around this person. I want nothing to do with this person.
Damaged ego, hurt pride and feeling completely worthless are the cornerstones of my wall.
Thankfully, I'm not covering them with false attention and gains. I even ignored some today. Victory in the Lord! That is my song and I'll sing it loud and strong!
Goodness, I am so glad my Savior never gives up on me.
It has to be the Holy Spirit working wonders in my heart, mind and soul.
My problem right now is I don't want to change my rock-hard emotions. I like having this wall between me and that person. Maybe I'll want to change soon, but right now, I don't. I don't want to talk to this person. I don't want to be around this person. I want nothing to do with this person.
Damaged ego, hurt pride and feeling completely worthless are the cornerstones of my wall.
Thankfully, I'm not covering them with false attention and gains. I even ignored some today. Victory in the Lord! That is my song and I'll sing it loud and strong!
Goodness, I am so glad my Savior never gives up on me.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
A Fight, a Battle....
I have heard it said that all girls over analyze everything. But sometimes I wonder if it's just me.
I have spent the last two hours praying about a choice I have before me. I am trying not to over-think, but I don't want to make a rash decision either. I also realize that if I don't decide tonight then I will probably not even consider this idea again. I'm wondering if this choice will be a turning factor in this season of my life.
The Lord has been showing me things I've put before Him. By His grace, mercy and strength, I have been fighting and winning a battle. The course of action I am praying about taking is part of this battle.
Just pray for me.
I have spent the last two hours praying about a choice I have before me. I am trying not to over-think, but I don't want to make a rash decision either. I also realize that if I don't decide tonight then I will probably not even consider this idea again. I'm wondering if this choice will be a turning factor in this season of my life.
The Lord has been showing me things I've put before Him. By His grace, mercy and strength, I have been fighting and winning a battle. The course of action I am praying about taking is part of this battle.
Just pray for me.
Guest Author to Depths of my Soul
I would like to introduce and welcome my first guest blogger, Bethany. Not only is she an amazing woman of God, she is my biggest supporter, my greatest challenger and the best sister/friend one could ever ask for!
I don't know when she will post, but anticipate a incredible piece of art (in the form of writing) to soon come your way!
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