Stressful Week

Oh my word. It's only been about three days since I last wrote, but it feels like ages.

I've had a pretty stressful week. My grandfather died and the visitation and funeral was this weekend. I hate all things that have to do with funerals.

My computer went crazy yesterday while I was trying to do homework and that was not helping my stress levels. It's been acting up ever since and it had better straighten up because I can not have a computer that acts crazy during school.

I'm super tired. Since Wednesday I have stayed up past my bedtime (10:30pm) and I haven't gotten enough sleep. I need to change that. Yeah, it's not going too well because it's 11:30pm now and I'm up writing a blog.

I watched Australia Thursday night. I did not realize how long that movie was and it definitely made RG's text make more sense. I thought he was just being a baby and saying he needed sleep (he has no problems staying up late on Mondays and Wednesdays), but man! that was a LONG movie. It was close to 12am when I got home. I invited quite a few people to with me but RG and Carrie were the only ones that responded to my text. It was a good movie though and I would watch it again especially since I missed part of it! I had to pee!

Websites I've been looking at lately:
http://www.springfield-armory.com/
http://www.davebarnes.com/

And I've watched a few Dave Barnes YouTube videos. I love those. They make me laugh every time! If he would sell them, I would definitely buy all of them!

I'm going to bed. It's WAY past my bedtime and I'm tired. I only stayed up this late because I was watching Dave Barnes vids. haha! Good night!

Tired Like the Dickens!

Who doesn't watch American Idol? That is probably the only TV show I've watched since starting college. I'm completely okay with it too. TV is very lame.

My Grand Opening Pampered Chef show is Feb 3rd and 5th. I'm doing one show on two different nights. You pick the night that is best for you and come have fun with me! I'm so excited!

I cannot believe I'm almost finished with a month of school. It's so strange and yet very natural to be in college. It's not much different than home school and in that sense it's easy. You can pray for me though. I'm feeling really frustrated with my French class. I'm not doing as well as I could be. And I know I push my French homework to the back when I should do it FIRST every day and that doesn't happen. I'm going to talk to my professor hopefully tomorrow and talk about it. I would love to meet with her on a weekly basis, but I highly doubt that is possible, so I'm probably going to look into getting a tutor. I want to do as well as I possibly can and if that means getting help and having someone push me then I want that!

I'll have to let you guys read my Narrative/Descriptive essay for my English class. I'm thrilled with it. It starts the moment my Mom hit her head and ends after we walk out of the private "cry" room at the hospital. I can't wait for my professor to read it! Dad went over and looked for mistakes and helped me correct some things and I'm thinking about having RG do the same. I want as many opinions as I can get and as many suggestions as I can get to make this the BEST essay ever! So when I post it, feel free to give your advice!

Since last Wednesday I have had a dry mouth. It's the weirdest and most horrible thing ever. I don't know why I have it or how to make my saliva glands work again! But I want them to so badly! You don't realize how useful and amazing they are until they stop producing saliva. It's kind of scary just because I don't know what's wrong. It's kind of crazy too because I feel thirsty all the time!

I'm going to bed soon. I'm super tired. I am considering not riding with RG to the BCM anymore. He is way more social than I am and he stays up too late for this 5:30am girl. I don't do very well getting up that early and not getting enough sleep is like - how can I even compare it to anything? It's horrible! If I don't get enough sleep I'm grumpy, irritable, crave sweets (which is not good!), and I have no desire to talk in the mornings. You can ask any of my siblings it's pretty bad. I am not a morning person! But I do like getting up early because I feel like I'm more productive. I get more done. I feel like I haven't wasted my day! All of those reasons make me want to continue having 8am classes and getting up at 5:30 in the morning!
Oh, not to mention, when I ride to the BCM with RG and we leave late, I end up talking about cRazY stuff with him because I'm so stinkin' tired! Like alligators eating live chickens or the fact that I had a pet lizard. If you knew RG, you would probably laugh just thinking about him having that type of conversation. He's very intellectual, very... almost formal in his mannerism and language. So when I get up the next morning and I remember what kind of stuff I talked to him about it's a little embarrassing! Maybe I'm his link to little people in this world! haha. I don't know. I'm tired now and I'm rambling! Go figure! *giggles*

That is definitely my cue to go to bed! Good night people! I hope you are all having a wonderful week!

I am Gomer

I am going to Americus today. I'm kind of nervous. I haven't been in almost a year. It's always weird going back. It's the place I grew up, but it's not home. Plus, there are a lot of bad memories with Americus. I'm not saying all are bad, but a good bit definitely are.

I'm having my Grand Opening Pampered Chef party Feb 3rd OR Feb 5th. If you want to come RSVP by the 31st for the 3rd or by the 2nd for the 5th. You just pick one of those nights that work best for you, tell me you're coming and we'll have a party! So simple.

Pray for me. I am not feeling motivated to do homework and I really need to do it. Fridays just feel like my "off" day and I really don't want to do anything! Isn't that horrible?!

I have been thinking about Hosea a lot lately. RG is reading (he's probably done by now) Redeeming Love and now I can't get the book of Hosea out of my head. I keep thinking about how I am so much like Gomer and Hosea like Christ. I keep running away to do my own thing and yet Father Love time after time gently calls me back. I am blown away by His unfailing love. Oh how I do not desire Him and all He provides me like I should and He still offers it freely.

Seriously. My saliva glands are not working. It's freakish having a dry mouth all the time and I don't know what is causing them not to work, but it's annoying. I keep drinking water because I always feel thirsty. It doesn't help. I was reading online last night about it (dry mouth) and I just sat there feeling pretty dramatic and saying over and over, "I'm dying! I'm going to die!". *laughs* Anna told me to stop saying it and that just made me laugh even more! Any suggestions for making them work again?!

Ok, I'm off to study. I have a list of things I have to have done before Monday and if I don't get started now I won't get anything done.

"Those" Years and Random Stupid Stuff Because I'm Bored.

I am sitting outside in the cold wind and let me tell you! It is COLD!!!! My hands feel like they are freezing. But I'm sticking it out. I'm enjoying the sunshine which I feel like I don't get to do very often.

Have you read Andy Merrick's blog?! You should. You need to add him to the list of bloggers you follow. He's incredible. http://blog.andymerrick.com/

I don't really have anything of importance to write. I'm just writing random stuff because I can.

I'm excited about the Bible study tonight because Carrie is going to be there and I can tell her all of my guy stories and she, being a woman, will appreciate them more so than the guys that will be there! Besides Carrie is just funny and I love hanging out with her and I don't think I've seen her since last year (which is terribly sad! I miss her!). It promises to be a very good night!

I feel like my week has consisted of me talking to random guys. It's kinda weird and crazy. I've talked to at least 3 different guys for different reasons, but I don't do that in a normal week. It is interesting to say the least. But, umm... also confusing. Guys are confusing. I don't know. I should probably re-read Andy's blog (he's got some good ones on relationships! http://blog.andymerrick.com/?cat=19)

It feels like everyone I know is either getting married, getting engaged or getting in a relationship this year. It happens every couple years. You know, everyone you know and hang out with are in relationships or you know it's just a "matter of time" before they make it official. Man! I hate those years. Because I'm never on of "those" people. My time will come! (I keep repeating this to myself until I somewhat believe it! haha!! I'm so funny!).

I think I make myself laugh more than anyone else in the world. I just crack myself up sometimes! I'm not kidding! Sometimes I just laugh and laugh at whatever I've just said. And it probably wasn't even that funny to begin with! But I can't help it.

Right now I'm trying to remember what it feels like to feel my fingers. They are red and tingling. I'm about to go inside. Have a great day people. I'm off to find a warm place so I don't freeze in front of the school library. Not cool.

Obama

Did you watch the inauguration today? Obama's speech was AMAZING! Man, that guy, wait. stop. pause. rewind. Mr. President Barack Obama can write! He is the man when it comes to writing a speech!
My French Professor (bless her!) let us watch it. I will be forever grateful that she did. I hated that I was going to miss it so when she announced we would watch it in class I wanted to jump up and do a jig! Not really, but I was really excited!

I was very surprised though. More than half of my class left when she turned it on (she said we could but I didn't think anyone would)! Come on people! This is history in the making! Thirty plus years ago this was a dream that men and women across America didn't think could come true! And you are going to skip it?! Insane. Doesn't what is happening in America matter to you? The racial binders that are being further broken don't they cry out for you to stop and listen to the change that has take our country by storm? "I have a dream!" Those famous words. Today we've seen that dream lived out. We have an African-American President! God is incredible. This is all His doing.

My children (if and when I have some!) won't wonder why there's never been a black president. I wonder if I'll have to explain to them the times when that was unheard of. I am so proud to be an American. I'm so proud I was able to witness this moment in history. I am proud to have an African-American President.

If you didn't watch it, I highly encourage you to take a moment and do so. I'm sure you can find it if you google.

Snow!!!

I forgot to tell you guys the best part of my weekend! I saw snow! I stood in falling snow. I felt real, fresh, live snow. It was incredible. Bethany was laughing at me. But I didn't care. It has been well over ten years since I last saw snow and it was just awe-inspiring! I love snow! Isn't God amazing? He has made everything beautiful!

My Weekend

I'm sitting in a McDonald's parking lot waiting on my siblings. They are at a concert and I'm ready for that concert to be over so I can go home. I have to be up early tomorrow and I haven't really slept well the last couple nights. That happens when I'm not sleeping in my own bed. I've been with Bethany in Gatlinburg, TN and now that I've been once I have no desire to go back. I really don't like tourist towns like that. They are too busy, too crowded, too messy, too everything that is "bad". But it was fun to be with Bethany. I love her.

So I realized I'm truly obsessed with doing school while I was talking with Bethany about it. I almost started freaking out this past weekend because I didn't think I was going to have time to do any homework. I did some reading and worked on a study guide. I actually could be doing more now, but I wanted to talk to you guys.

My hair has grown on me. I really like it now. I don't know if I'll ever go back to long hair. I just think short looks better on me.

Could you pray for me? I've got a situation that isn't really a situation, but it feels like one and I'm confused. I need clarity; peace of mind; guidance; a clear path; understanding, and more. Much more. Can you tell it what it has to do with?

I'll talk to you guys later. My computer is going to die soon. I need a car charger!